Justin and I have worked really hard to have a nice life - to be able to do what we want to do, go where we want to go, and be what we want to be. I never saw myself as someone who would be "domestic" and absolutely never saw myself as being a stay at home mom, but you get a little older and you see the world a little differently. I celebrate my role as mom and wife - however I also have had many opportunities with a career, education, and continue to work towards enhancing both. I have spent time working and going to school and so I don't feel as though I have missed out on any of those aspects. I also know that once our kid(s) get older I will be able to return to a career and (I shudder at the thought) and could go back to school for yet another degree if I so chose. I want to be a woman that Ellie will be proud to call mom - a woman that she will want to emulate -
I googled emulate (just to ensure that I had spelled it correctly - which I had) and I found these definitions:
Yes, I want Ellie to be so much MORE than I have been, am or will be. I want her to have the moon and the stars --- I want her to see in her dada and I people that have worked hard to give her the life of her dreams. I know, I know....this doesn't ensure that she will turn out to be a wonderful human being however if you know Ellie at all I think you will know that she is turning out quite wonderful (if I do say so myself). The girl loves life, loves people, and is just a joy (although she does have her moments....sorry Ellie!).
Staying at home does come with challenges --and there are times I do feel overwhelmed but those time periods usually come to an abrupt end when Ellie does something cute and/or funny or when I see Ellie and dada interacting. Staying home - even though it has meant some amount of sacrifice - has been the most rewarding experience and the biggest gift I can offer to Ellie at this time. I feel that I am a constant work in progress with this mom/wife role and I strive daily to be better --- ok most days I do!
Staying at home does come with challenges --and there are times I do feel overwhelmed but those time periods usually come to an abrupt end when Ellie does something cute and/or funny or when I see Ellie and dada interacting. Staying home - even though it has meant some amount of sacrifice - has been the most rewarding experience and the biggest gift I can offer to Ellie at this time. I feel that I am a constant work in progress with this mom/wife role and I strive daily to be better --- ok most days I do!
Images by: Anne Taintor
